New life chapters

New chapters are exciting. You get to start fresh at a new point in time and re-invent yourself all over again. There are several chapters in one's life, some more important than others. These chapters have the ability to test your character and allow you to see the potential of your own ability.

Right now, I am starting a new chapter of my life: nursing school. I’ve been waiting for this part of my life since before my freshman year and now it seems all too real. I’m finally able to submerge myself into what I decided was my passion back when I was 18. I’m nervous, excited and indifferent all together.

Sometimes I don’t even know how to feel, because maybe it hasn’t hit me yet.

I’m finally at a point in my life where I feel like I’m doing something to serve my purpose, and I really hope that this is where I’m meant to be. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll stay in this field for the rest of my life, or venture off and find something new later on. I have dreams and passions other than nursing, but this is in fact something I’ve always wanted to accomplish. I’m already anticipating getting my degree and starting a new life in the real world. Starting this semester has started a fire in my heart of what my life could look like once I’m done with it all.

Basically, I just started this chapter and I’m already thinking about the next. Will I move to Nashville after college and work at Vanderbilt Hospital? Will I get to travel the world like I’ve always wanted to in my mid-twenties, maybe become a travel nurse? Will I ever open up an art studio like I’ve most recently dreamed about doing? Maybe a bakery? I have so many fantasies in my head about what I may want my life to look like, many thanks to Pinterest for inspiration throughout the years.

I start to wonder where my friends will be too. The friends going through nursing school with me and the friends I’ve had since I was 15. There’s so much uncertainty in the future, it gets a bit overwhelming. As much as I like to think about where my dreams will take me in the coming years, my heart also breaks at the thought of separating from the people I love, even if it is for my happiness. At the same time, I need to constantly remind myself how irrational it is to be putting so much pressure on my future self. I've been trying to refocus my thoughts on the present more recently because the saying “What’s meant to be, will be” has incredible depth behind it. I have always thought it to be true, and have tried my best to live my life around it. I know my life is not in my hands, so why worry? Why try and read the end of the book when you’re on chapter one? The book is always so much better when you take it chapter by chapter.

And if the saying is true, maybe we’ll all meet again in the final chapter.